This sucks!

I just asked my husband..."Do you think they will throw me in jail if I don't send the kids back to school?" Of course, I was not serious. But how nice would that be to just say NO! I am not sending them! And that would be that!

I am having a really emotional evening. Tomorrow is my one and only little girls 5th birthday and I have to send her off to Kindergarten all by herself. I might be being selfish, but I DON'T WANT TO! I do not want to send her. I do not want to send Zach back to school either. Why do we HAVE to do this? They are MY BABIES and I WANT THEM ALL TO MYSELF!

I sat in the bath tub crying for a good half hour tonight after tucking the "big" kids into bed. I just don't want to let go of them!

Now granted, from past experience, I know that we will all adjust and this will become "routine" once again, but it still sucks! Gosh, what am I going to do when they want to get married and move out? Oh.my.goodness! I am not sure I will survive that!

On a good note, Aubrie is so excited for her birthday and for her first day of K that she can not even fall asleep. Zach...well you know how 7 year old boys are! They say they do not want to go back to school but you know deep down that they do. Just wouldn't be cool to say such a thing!

Say a prayer, think a thought, cross a finger, whatever you believe in doing for me to stay strong for these little, I mean BIG kids of mine! I will miss them dearly but I do know that they will be having fun and learning lots of good things!

I'll update with pics of their first day tomorrow!!